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Jay ·
Well this is the big one for me today guys! Today will determine whether i'm likely to ever see Synthmaker 2.0 😉
As most of you already know i have been battling cancer for a while now and today i am flying down to London to have the tests that will show whether the treatments i have been receiving are working or not! I am more scared today than i ever was when i got told of my disease! I have come to realize over the last year,just what is important in life and none of the things i thought were important, have turned out to be so.
Family,Friends,love and friendship are all that matters when you really look at it! Not money,success,property or any of the material thinks we all hanker for! lol not even arguing with ppl on a forum about p2p matters an iota 😉
its made me think about legacy too,what do we leave behind and is it important? I think a mans best legacy is what he leaves in the hearts and minds of others,memories of good deeds done,fun times had,wisdom and imparted knowledge,
and the love you had for others! again the material things are unimportant.
Sometimes we loose sight of what really matters in life whilst we strive for all the material gains our hearts desire,and for what?
Anyway the airport awaits! wish me luck guys
thanks for reading
TomC ·
Jay wrote: As most of you already know i have been battling cancer for a while now and today i am flying down to London to have the tests that will show whether the treatments i have been receiving are working or not!
Sending you some positive mojo from down here!
Tom
philter5 ·
hey jay, i wish you all the best and i hope you´re back soon! 😀
phil
stw ·
Best wishes also from here. And all the power you need to go through whatever will come!
Andrew J ·
Fingers crossed for some good news mate!
Disco_Steve ·
good luck. chuck.
I hope the treatments are working
Steve
MegaHurtz ·
In that perspective all matters concerning this forum are trivial.
Strangely the energy that made us never gave us a clue, yust free will.
Althoug opposing any type is vital in shaping the future.
Damn man.. Hope they can patch you up.
Best of luck.
DigitalWhiteByte ·
Hope is the heart of care.
Do not miss ever.
Tzarls ·
Believe me Jay, SM3 will be a lot better than SM2, so you better stay around for a long while! 😉 Good wishes from here.
aliasant ·
God luck m8
I have had Cancer and was lucky. Good thing getting it now and not 20 years ago. At least in my case.
Go kick some ass!
sunsynth ·
Damn - little late here but...
I wish you all the very best!
Walter
Acrobat ·
hope youll be better soon 🙂
Jay ·
Thank you very much for the support guys! Your words mean more to me than you can imagine 🙂
The news is quite good for me! The two metastasized tumors have been reduced by around 40% & 55% whilst the father tumor that started this all off is in my right lung, it has reduced by about 20% so i am to have the upper quadrant of the lung removed and the two others are reduced enough for laser removal, this will be followed up with another 6 months of chemo drugs and radiotherapy.
They say i wont really miss the piece of lung and my body will learn to cope without it, So i am ecstatic at this news,whilst it is by no means the end of it,(i would have to remain clear of cancer cells for two years before i can be given the all clear)
its not the end of me yet either 😀 😀 😀
Please please please, if you smoke, consider quitting or at least reduce your intake! In all likelihood i caused my own illness through smoking both cigarettes and cannabis. I smoked from the age of 19 until last year,I'm 36yo atm, so in less than 15 years i have done catastrophic damage to myself - Don't be like me! please!
Thanks again for the kind words guys! and my wife and children thank you also!
Best regards
trogluddite ·
Glad to hear that 🙂 - here's hoping to see a lot more of you round here in the future.
As to legacy - well, we've never even seen each others faces - but your music, encouragment to develop stuff, and shaking up some ideas about p2p have sure given me a sorely needed kick up the arse.
Disco_Steve ·
excelent news, thanks for the update, It was like one of those films that never answers the question. compleat torture!
its a pitty they didn't hit the 100% mark, but they are working! which is fantastic news.
best of luck with the opp. and all the best with your synthing in the mean time 🙂
Steve
philter5 ·
hey jay,
really great news. i really wish you good luck and i really have to thank you for opening my eyes...
my dad died from cancer when i was 15. after that i started to smoke (hell knows why 😠 ) and with 16
i began to smoke cannabis . at this age i have not realized that i do the same to my body than my dad did
the years before he died . i stopped smoking cigarettes at the age of 20 because the memory of my dad always reminded me what this can do with you. now, after ten years self destruction, i am on a good way to stop even smokin weed,
which was my only therapy in the last few years. but now after your post i decided once again to give this sh*t up.
thank you man 😉
Jay ·
ooh thanks Trogg for the very cool compliments,I thought my music was a bit duff,glad you like it m8 😀 thats given me the courage to post it for all to hear and give critique on.
funny though we all make musical related software and we don't have a forum section dedicated to the music we might make! would be cool if we had one, we could also post samples and synth/effect patches we wanna share ect, legal stuff like! 😉
@philter5 I'm so glad you are giving it a go Philter5! you will feel fantastic if you manage it,smoking is a hard addiction to beat so i wish you every success in that!
If i can encourage 1 single soul to give up smoking through hearing my story then that will make all my suffering worth while.
to celebrate this new lease of life i am going to try and learn how to code in asm! a thing i have wanted to try but, because of the way things have been have held off from doing it.I have also decided to take early retirement so that i may spend more time with my friends and family! lol poor them!
best regards
MegaHurtz ·
Good to hear that, Fuck them cancers we human!
Hope you get well soon, happy hacking 🙂
Jay ·
thanks Megahurtz much appreciated m8 🙂
best regards
RunBeerRun2 ·
Good luck on the outcome, man.
malc ·
Hi Jay,
Whoa - only just read this.
So great to hear that the news was positive. Very best of luck with the op and the follow up treatment.
Malc.
MegaHurtz ·
Yea man.. had to see a string of these when I was younger.
Happy to see Jay escape that one.
Jay ·
Thanks malc! 😀
I meant to let you all know the news i got on Thursday last, The doctors advised me that i have gained sufficient mass (lol I'm still as thin as a rake) to proceed with the aforementioned surgery to remove or partially remove one lung!
My surgery is set for Mon 26th of April 2010 - all being well 🙂 its funny the things you can start to look forward to 😉
Last couple of weeks have been a very sad time for me and my family. I met a little girl in one of the NHS hospitals i attended last year, she was 8yo and her name was Clair,she was the prettiest little thing you ever saw and very intelligent,kind,considerate and a very very brave little girl, she was suffering from Osteosarcoma.My wife and i fell instantly in love with her and became great friends with her parents.
Clair's family come from one of the poorer areas of Glasgow and needless to say they have very little of anything. I had just been diagnosed and my wife and i had already decided to go private with my treatment and we wanted to help Clair and her family so we took them along for the ride,got her specialist treatment in the Portland Hospital in London.
Things were starting to look up for Clair for a few months there and the treatments seemed to be working for a while but,it was too little too late and the little angel passed away on Friday the 10th of March,We are all devistated.Clair will be in our hearts and minds for the rest of our days.
We made little Clair a promise to look after her mummy and daddy if she died, We will keep that promise and do all we can in getting them and their two other children out of poverty. First though we're sending them all of on a well deserved holiday and then we will take it from there!
I find myself struggling with all of this! I cant understand how i get a second chance at life and little Clair got none.They say that "life is not fair" damn right it isn't.
thanks for reading
Best Regards
MegaHurtz ·
Don`t even know what to say really.
AngularMomentum ·
Same here, this is really aweful, hadn't even read this before, so it is what we say here in the Netherlands "coming cold on the roof"
I wish you much love and strength man!
malc ·
It's a terrible thing at any age but for children so young, well as MHz put it there really are no words. My friend's little boy Adam is just 6 and yet he is made to fight so hard just to reach 7. It's just awful.
It's a great thing you did (and are still doing) to help Clair and her family.
The very best of luck to you for the 26th and beyond.
Jay ·
Well the time has about come for me to say hopefully, not my final goodbye to you all.
If it should be the last you ever hear from me then be rest assured that i will do my best from the spirit world to see that malc and co get extra help in bringing SynthMaker 2.0 to fruition. 😉 I have a 65% chance of complete success in Monday's op, but if i am to be in the other 35% then i just want you all to know that i have loved my time with you all and even though i don't even understand half of the stuff you guys get up too in SynthMaker, I have enjoyed every single Min spent on these forums, I have enjoyed every single forum post i have read, every osm i have opened and i have even enjoyed every argument i got involved in.
You kept me sane in moments of great stress and sadness. Thank You All!
My greatest gig now! With no regrets whatsoever!
Take care of yourselves men and i will see yah all soon.
Tzarls ·
I wish you the best of lucks on whatever is it that awaits you. And please, make sure you help us with SM 2 in a material rather than a spiritual form!
May the force be with you.
Andrew J ·
Jay, if you believe that the thoughts and best wishes of others can influence an outcome - then know that I and others will be thinking of you and your family and hoping for the best on Monday.
-Andrew
philter5 ·
see ya soon jay!
all the best
phil 😉
MegaHurtz ·
Best of luck m8!
trogluddite ·
May the force be with you.
DigitalWhiteByte ·
My hope is with you !
Do not be dirty with the nurses 😀
sunsynth ·
I'll keep my fingers crossed.
Walter
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